It doesn’t look at all good. The bump on my head is really quite big. It is bigger than the half a golf ball under my scalp that it used to be, and the headache is taking its toll. I am not on any medication for it at this point, but really I should. I feel I am losing the ability to think straight, but I think that has more to do with the headache than any interfering with brain function.
I had prayer for healing again on Monday last week with friends Geoff and Ruth and the guys down in Mandurah. It was a really great day. I have been feeling very peaceful since the recent diagnosis, but after this day I was particularly excited about what could happen. I believe God is giving me this peace. How can you have a massive cancerous bump on your head, have a marriage breakdown, struggle to know what you should be doing for work, and come to terms with who God is in all this while having a peace about it. I am not saying that there is nothing that concerns me – I still have to make some difficult decisions. But there is an excitement also that God can do something. Whether He does or not is another matter.
The question that I am challenged to ask of myself at this point is “What is God confronting me with in this?” There is a list, and it may become clearer to me in the future. But for now, I am conscious that I think too much and don’t live enough. It is a great day outside, and there are things to do. I want to be more disciplined in how much time I spend ‘thinking’ about things, and how much time I spend taking action.
